“You’re no savage, right?” That’s what you asked me. But you know as well as I do that we’re all savages in due course. Our love gets hammered into something sharp and we stab the people around us, for the unpardonable crime of refusing to abandon us.
Steve Almond from Which Brings Me to You: A Novel in Confessions
I wanted Normal and I was willing to accept the bargain. First, you hand over some basics-overwhelming joy, existential angst, a giving-in to desire, etc. And then you promise to withstand talking idly about the weather, to encourage cliche, to uphold the virtues of average. You hand over the need to be understood and, in return, you get a bar of Normal soap. And you can wash in it and be daily reborn to a safe world of modest, enduring love or, at least, mild, well-mannered bonding.
- Julianna Baggot from Which Brings Me to You
I thought about the little girl I’d seen in the window, how she had offered up her performance to me. It was what children did, naturally - they drew love from the world. And they did so not because they were inherently good and pure, or any of that other Shirley Temple garbage. But just the opposite: because they knew how much the world could hurt them, at any time, how quickly the fates could turn, and this made them desperate to charm.
I took a writing workshop with Steve Almond the other night. If you don’t know who Steve Almond is, you bettah axe somebod-ay. Or just click his name because I linked that shit because the Internet, right? My relationship with his work started in what must have been 2003. After a girl in one of my classes told me that all of my female characters lacked depth and were stupid and that I couldn’t write girls worth a shit (she was right, y’all!), she told me that I should check out Steve Almond. Maybe because he could write female characters? Or maybe because she thought I didn’t understand women and wanted me to read someone else who didn’t understand them? Or to show me that you could not understand them but write them better? I don’t know. Whatever. I picked up My Life in Heavy Metal. Great title. Great cover. Great collection of stories. I was onto this dude and I was digging him.
I then read Candyfreak and later B.B Chow and Other Stories and eventually Rock and Roll Will Save Your Life and Which Brings Me to You. Which Brings Me to You blew my brain. It could’ve easily been schmaltzy but it’s an orgy of potent quotables, a veritable fuckfest of lines designed to crush you. So much in that novel will resonate with you, I don’t care who the fuck you are.
Anyway, the workshop was on Getting Beginnings Right and was at Grub Street in Boston. Since you weren’t there, I’ve transcribed my vague notes below…for freeeeee.
Show what’s at stake immediately
Strong independent narrator
Need to fully embed in the consciousness
Never confuse the reader
Surprise and suspense are different
Social milieu
Fucking up in interesting ways
Follow the person in the most danger
Paying attention to people is love
Internally big moments
The rate of revelation – make sure that shit is high
When they learn things they already know = low rate of revelation
Get rid of all the words not doing the work
Don’t wrinkle the chronology
Don’t settle for the vague
Find what’s dangerous
Ground the reader; they will be satisfied
Poetry is precise
Writing is decision making
Specific agenda & history
If we’re following the minutiae, we need the grand scale
Intellectual apprehension of the shit, not a moment to moment emotional taking = bad
Don’t leap into the closed third (whoopsie!)
Examples of stories we checked out:
Rock Springs – Richard Ford
Bullet in the Brain – Tobias Wolff
The Things They Carried – Tim O’brien
A Good Man Is Hard to Find – Flannery O’Connor
The Beauty Treatment – Stacey Richter
The Four-Night Fight – Ann Beattie
You’re welcome, everybody.
Oh, what did he think of the piece that I brought in and read? He thought it was in direct opposition to everything he was teaching us! Huzzah! He gave me the impression that he appreciated it though. It might’ve been wrong, it might not have dragged him in emotionally and grounded him but it was at least done well. So, there’s that. And, oh, I got a signed copy of Which Brings Me to You. Did I walk away with a new best friend (like I kind of expected)? No, I did not. I walked away sweaty and awkward but inspired.
An Interview with The Days of Yore (read the whole thing).
And you have two kids now. Kids are shit magnets.
[Nodding.] Oh my god. People give you shit. Shit just comes into your life. There’s this endless stream—preschool shit, and Target shit, and it’s plastic and awful and life is too short.
I guess I look back romantically on those days when I was alone. I put crazy stuff up on the wall; there was no design scheme, no fancy furniture. I bought my clothes from thrift stores. I still do that. But it’s an ongoing moral battle: we’ve reached this place where we must get nice stationery to write thank you notes to the people who come to our party, because they wrote us thank-yous when we went to their party. And I’m like, really? We’re them? We’re that?
You mentioned that you teach, and that makes me think of the time you publicly resigned from your adjunct position at Boston College in 2006 because they invited in Condoleezza Rice as their commencement speaker. You’ve written about your admiration for Vonnegut; he was very vocal about moral issues and politics. I was going to ask whether you think writers have an obligation to address political or societal problems, but what I really want to ask is: how do we fix it?
I don’t know. Americans have to make a decision that convenience is not going to be their godhead. Until they are willing to see what the dividends of inconvenience might be—spiritually, emotionally and intellectually—I think we’re headed in the wrong direction.
Everything’s become convenient, even war. If we’re sending young people into terrible, violent situations, how about everybody has to sacrifice? How about there’s a war tax, and everybody has to pay five percent of whatever they’re making to pay for that war? How quickly do you think people would say, “Fuck that, let’s not have that war. Let’s find out whether that war is really crucial.” How about if you want to support the troops, then the price of that bumper sticker is two percent of your annual income, or five percent on purchases you make in the retail outlets closest to your home? That would make it clear: “If I want to have a war, I have to support the war. I can’t just privatize it and send off one percent of the population and wave a flag when they come back all fucked up.”
Public transportation should be required. There should be a luxury tax on the use of private vehicles. You can have them, it’s capitalism, nobody’s trying to take them away. But you’re going to have to pay more for them. And meat. If meat cost what it actually costs, we would use less meat. My wife and I get our meat through a CSA [Community Supported Agriculture], so it actually does. And corn syrup, all this stuff is subsidized, and it all comes down to us wanting convenience.
That’s what Facebook and other social media are about, too—making the gathering and disbursement of little ego moments very convenient. It’s so deeply threaded into the way we’re moving through the world that I don’t know how it gets undone. Part of me thinks we’ll have to reach the end of peak oil, and then we’ll have to make collective decisions. Since we don’t seem capable of trusting that scientists are right, the shit’s going to have to hit the fan.
I could say that I think people should read more and engage with acts of imagination, but it would be naïve to suppose that that’s going to bring us into harmony. The world is way out of balance, and the only way it starts to change is if people make an agreement to abandon a need for convenience.
[Smiling up at a customer browsing a nearby shelf of books.] Howdy.
So what do you see as the role of the writer or the artist in that? Does having a megaphone of some kind mean having a duty to speak out about these things?
Everybody decides for themselves. I’m outspoken about my distress, but the only duty that writers and artists have is to do their thing, and to be good to the people closest to them. That’s your central duty as a human, and it’s where we mostly fail— in being nice to the people right around us, our family and close friends.
A writer doesn’t have to speak out for this or that moral agenda—their art does that. I mean, say I read Sam Lipsyte’s story in The New Yorker. I recognize the kind of person he’s writing about, and there’s this astonishing, moving sense of an entitled person who’s damaged in many ways and stuck, and it’s heartbreaking. I read it, and I feel more than I did before. That’s the artist’s only real responsibility.
- Steve Almond
“Or consider what Hughes does with a visit by our heroes to the Art Institute of Chicago. Backed by a soft, symphonic score, he offers us lengthy shots of the most beautiful paintings in the world: Hoppers, Modiglianis, Pollocks. There is no ulterior plot motive; he is simply celebrating the majesty of the work. We see Cameron, Ferris, and his dishy girlfriend Sloane stand before a trio of Picassos, transfixed.
As the music crescendoes, we see Cameron standing before Georges Seurat’s pointillist masterpiece, A Sunday Afternoon on the Island of La Grande Jatte. We cut to a shot of Ferris and Sloane, the happy couple, necking in the blue light of a stained-glass window, then back to Cameron, alone, staring at the Seurat. Another one of these magical things happens: the camera begins zooming in on the little girl in white at the center of the canvas. We cut back to Cameron, closer now. Then back to the little girl. We see his growing anguish as he realizes that her mouth is wide open, that, in fact, she is wailing.
Okay, good enough: Cameron recognizes himself in the figure of this little girl whose mother is holding her hand but making no effort to comfort her. Got it.
But then Hughes takes us even deeper. He gives us an extreme close-up of Cameron’s eyes, then cuts back to the canvas, to the girl’s face, then to her mouth, then to the specks of paint that make up her mouth, until we can no longer resolve those specks into an image; they are just splotches of color on coarse fabric. This is the true nature of Cameron’s struggle: his anxieties have obliterated his sense of identity.”
It shouldn’t come as a surprise by now that I dig Steve Almond…hard. theNewerYork #0 tipped me off to this small experimental book he did called, This Won’t Take But a Minute, Honey. The video is of him reading from said book back in December of ’09.
This Won’t Take But a Minute, Honey: read through in one direction to find tiny little short stories of a page each. Flip the book over and find mini essays on the psychology and practice of writing. I’ve given you my favorites from each below.
Communio Sannctorum
When the avalanche came the fuselage filled with snow, like a drowning throat. There were twenty four people inside, dazed survivors of a plane crash high in the Andes. They were boys mostly, rugby players buoyant with the wants of youth. They had soft girlfriends and old cars they shined by hand. They hung cigarettes from their lips and blew smoke at the sun. At night, their mothers still stole into their rooms to watch them sleep. Some weeks ago, they had begun to eat the flesh of their dead comrades.
And now this: the soft slam of snow erasing them. For a few moments there was absolute silence. A few began to moan. It was easier when they stopped struggling. One said later he could see a crown of light bending towards him. Another said he felt, at the exact moment of surrender, a tranquility so profound it would haunt him for the rest of his life. A third – the one who came closest to dying – saw hundreds of images from his childhood. He inspected them with great patience, like photographs, falling backward in time until he was just a baby on a white rug and his mother was walking towards him.
The boys were devout Catholics. They had been forced to gaze upon their redeemer as a man nailed to wood, His arms flung out for a bloody hug. Now they knew the truth. It was better than any vision. This is why, when they felt hands clutching at them, they fought to remain still. They were spirits roused from the tomb of paradise. They smelled the stinking pleas of their bodies. Bullies hovered over them with the wild eyes of saints, pounding at their hearts, saving them.
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Character in a Hole
But perhaps you are one of those aspiring writers who wishes to write about The Alienated, that exalted breed who are so deeply and mysteriously wounded that they are no longer able to feel much of anything and must therefore stumble through their given plot points, secretly hoping they are being filmed for a music video.
The Alienated are all the same. They’re always trapped in dead-end marriages and jobs and they have no friends or family to comfort or confront them. Sometimes they are given lavish homes, as if to mock the poverty of their internal lives. But mostly they dwell in holes. I can see them down there, sipping at their misery cocktails, wallowing poetically. Characters in holes don’t hope or struggle or mourn. They put nothing at risk.
But wait a second, you’re saying, perhaps defensively, isn’t the inability to connect emotionally a central crisis of human consciousness? Didn’t Hemmingway write about this shit all the time?
To which I would respond yes and yes. But Hemmingway had the good sense to place his alienated heroes in the midst of tumult, and furthermore to intrude upon their sense of alienation. He made them want things: heroism, the devotion of unreliable women, large symbolic fish.
This is by way of observing that alienation is not a natural human resting state; it’s a response to thwarted desire. Your duty as a writer is not to erect lovely monuments to these the lesser defense mechanisms but, on the contrary, to dismantle them and thereby expose the unbearable feelings they conceal. For additional details, please see Remains of the Day, The Good Soldier, Mr. and Mrs. Bridge, and so on.
Dudes, this story massaged me somewhere special. I’d find a way to climb into it if I were you. Probably helps if you have children and are a dude.
Steve Almond’s “Hope Wood” appealed to the dad in me in the same way, I suppose. In some kind of beautiful way.
Being Moved and Experiencing Beauty is important, right? I’m just still not sure why. Is the feeling itself profound enough or is it what you do with it? Is it the connection that you’ve made with the work or is it the connection that may continue if you share the feeling? Is it even possible to truly share the feeling? Questions I’ve been asking since I was fifteen, I think. They always seem relevant.
“Now that I have children of my own, this bothers me. This type of kid. Sometimes, when I feel depressed and stare out the window while my kids pester me for attention, or when I lose my temper and throw a plate or whatever, or when I’m in a good mood and I’m singing some song from the radio too loudly or too off-key, I think of that gentle, dewy-eyed first-person narrator and it makes my skin crawl. It doesn’t matter what you do. In the end, you are going to be judged, and all the times that you’re not at your most dignified are the ones that will be recalled in all their vivid, heartbreaking detail. And then of course these things will be distorted and exaggerated and replayed over and over, until eventually they turn into the essence of you: your cartoon.”